The Shadow is where I hide parts of myself that I am not ready to meet. What is hidden from my conscious view remains in shadow until it meets the light of my full awareness.
I have often questioned, “Is it wise to dabble in the Shadow? Do I really want to know what is hidden there?” I have been warned that some things are kept hidden for a reason. One friend advised me not to try hypno-therapy because he was afraid I would dredge up unpleasant memories that I may not be able to handle. For most of my life I have lived by that sort of advice. I let fear of the unknown keep me from exploring.
Sadly, when left unexplored the Shadow can cause a lot of problems. If my inner world creates my outer world. then what happens when I am unconscious of most of my inner world? Who’s left driving the car? When I take a look around, I see a world of mostly unconscious people. I see how the collective Ego is behind the wheel and steering us straight toward self-destruction. Then, I look at my own life and realize I have the same patterns of self-sabotaging behavior. The precarious imbalances we are toying with globally gives me the courage to forget my fear and take back the steering wheel in my own life. I refuse to let my Ego be in charge any more. I choose to explore the hidden aspects of who I am with the intention to become more fully conscious.
But what if there are beautiful things hidden in the Shadow, too? What if I am shutting myself off from my full potential?
Of course there may be inner demons lurking in the darkness of my unconscious mind, but those demons exist whether I recognize them in myself or not. It is a far more dangerous, in my opinion, to unconsciously project these internal demons onto my external environment. This only serves to further separate me from others, and also from my true nature. If harmony, understanding and oneness is what I truly seek, how can I justify avoiding my Shadow?
Somewhere in the dark depths of my unconscious I might find an oasis of creative energy, will power and loving Spirit. The depths of my true Self, at this stage in my development are almost unimaginable, but I feel compelled to probe into my Shadow to discover these depths one-by-one. Ultimately, I hope to embrace my Shadow and continue to heal myself from within.