I was blessed with the opportunity to talk to a wise woman this morning. Ms. J offered me a thoughtful gift for my baby. I had trouble accepting her offer and she questioned me about it. This is the conversation that followed.
Me: I’m not good at receiving gifts, compliments or really anything nice.
Ms. J: Well don’t you think you’re worth it?
Me: Well…I want to believe that, but I guess somewhere deep down, I don’t. No, I guess I don’t feel like I deserve praise and gifts.
Ms. J: Well you do.
Me: You’re probably right…
Ms. J: I am. You’re just like I used to be. you like giving more than you like receiving.
Me: Yes, I do.
Ms. J: Well honey, when you finally learn to receive compliments and recognition – which you will learn – it makes the giving a lot better, too.
I know she’s right and I believe in the message. I hear myself saying the same things to clients who come to me for healing sessions and friends who openly share with me. Why can’t I seem to get this message through to myself? What’s the block? I’m still trying to figure that out, but on mornings like this I start to realize that there’s no rush and that each day I’m improving just a little bit more. I’m happy with where I am and who I am. Life may not be so complicated after all…